The Spiritual Saga

I'm a moderately pious person. I am someone who firmly advocates the existence of god. However, I'm not an entirely religious person (Except when situations turn very shitty, ahem). Which led me into discovering the three stages of your relationship with God.

Stage 1: Before the task happens

So before you embark on a new task, journey or beginning; most of us Indians are told to pray. Beginnings, being awfully deceptive darlings, are usually positive. Most of us humans, wallow under a simulation of positivity and optimism. At least for me, I'm lured into believing that God is by my side and is in his highest spirits to bless me with all goodness. Sometimes, when I'm skeptical about god's commitment, I also try to bribe him by promising him, what we commonly call as a 'mannat'.

Stage 2: When the task happens

1. Either it goes well, in this case, bingo. You are happy, God seems happy and everything seems fine.
2. Here's the messy situation. What you'd hoped would happen, goes askew. You are frightfully miffed/depressed/lost/sullen (Depending on your character). Initially you blame yourself or some other human bait, you'd choose to put the blame on. As time passes, you get tired of holding yourself responsible and shove the blame on fate and then finally God. Isn't he the only mute spectator who pitifully and unquestioningly takes up the fury of human anger? Haven't we always been told that God shall always look after his devotees? Didn't we embark on this journey, cajoled into believing that God was going to sort things eventually?

Things turn sullen and you feel cheated. You feel terribly let down by God. You now act like a rebel. You refuse to look at his pictures/idols. You spit nasty words when someone tells you, your behaviour towards god is 'morally wrong'.

Stage 3: After the task happens

It's been days; You haven't been talking to God, God apparently hates you, but in reality, you are just as miserable as you were earlier. Things haven't turned sunny, you're probably still lamenting about the tragedy in your life. This is when 'Renaissance' happens. 

You feel helpless, nothing is working out right, you carefully walk up to god when no one's around. A mind voice says, 'he's the only resort'. You feel slightly abashed, but isn't God, gracious and all forgiving? 

You mend your ties with God, hoping he'll be nicer to you this time. Once again, brimming with Spiritual Positivity you take on life, hoping and waiting for a miracle.