I'm at that phase of life where everyone has a fiery passion or desire to get into some top institution like say, IIT, AIIMS etc. At that phase where maximum amount of one's time is devoted to studies. I have a few very ambitious friends who are really working hard to achieve their dreams and here I am, sitting at my desk aimlessly blogging.
When I was 9, I wanted to be an astronaut; like every child. I was so passionate that in fact I bought a couple of books on space and planets to start preparing. Which I now regard as a lame attempt. The very look at the night sky used to fill me with more determination.
When I was 10, I wanted to become a music director. As I play the keyboard, I decided that I would follow the path of A.R Rahman and become someone like him. I used to make my own kiddie compositions and used to pride myself as the next Mozart.
When I was 11, In the 6th grade... I decided, that I would stop fooling about and make a proper decision. I decided to take up medicine and become a doctor, partially because it would give me an escape route from the much dreaded Mathematics. Little did I know that Biology and Physics would go on to become my biggest problem. In fact I was even clear about the specialization that I would do, I wanted to be a gynecologist.
When I turned 13, I had already shifted to Mumbai and I got my wake up call. I realized science especially biology, was far more tougher than what I had imagined it to be. The standard of studies rose, we were doing advanced mathematics and science and I decided, I couldn't deal with Biology. After successive flops in all the Biology exams I said, "enough" I decided I would take up the trusty, preferred by all, monotonous-Engineering.
I convinced my family to put me into coaching classes for IIT. After a cycle of tests I dropped my dream of IIT and aimed for some other institute, as I realized that my tiny brain could not crack that exam. Not even in it's wildest dream. Since they were coaching classes for 'IIT' and not school the standards of what they taught was high and that freaked me out.
Projectiles and Vectors gave me sleepless nights and I knew the harsh truth that I wasn't built for complex theories and logical application.
I decided, I would take Commerce. Get a graduation in economics or commerce and then look at further options like C.A or MBA. I did sufficient research regarding that field and saw that it had it's own risks and catches. I stand on a road which bifurcates into two, at one end the horrors of Newton and Rutherford haunt me and on the otherside impassive numbers and data await me. My plans for future are completely bizzare. I know what I want to become, but I don't know what I want to study.
When I decide that I shall take Commerce then the sunny side of Non-medical sciences shows up. When I make up my mind that I shall take Non-medical sciences the horrors confront me. People tell me to come to a conclusion, I'm still thinking and that day is not far when I have to decide. But it looks like I shall declare my decision only on the D-day.
When I was 9, I wanted to be an astronaut; like every child. I was so passionate that in fact I bought a couple of books on space and planets to start preparing. Which I now regard as a lame attempt. The very look at the night sky used to fill me with more determination.
When I was 10, I wanted to become a music director. As I play the keyboard, I decided that I would follow the path of A.R Rahman and become someone like him. I used to make my own kiddie compositions and used to pride myself as the next Mozart.
When I was 11, In the 6th grade... I decided, that I would stop fooling about and make a proper decision. I decided to take up medicine and become a doctor, partially because it would give me an escape route from the much dreaded Mathematics. Little did I know that Biology and Physics would go on to become my biggest problem. In fact I was even clear about the specialization that I would do, I wanted to be a gynecologist.
When I turned 13, I had already shifted to Mumbai and I got my wake up call. I realized science especially biology, was far more tougher than what I had imagined it to be. The standard of studies rose, we were doing advanced mathematics and science and I decided, I couldn't deal with Biology. After successive flops in all the Biology exams I said, "enough" I decided I would take up the trusty, preferred by all, monotonous-Engineering.
I convinced my family to put me into coaching classes for IIT. After a cycle of tests I dropped my dream of IIT and aimed for some other institute, as I realized that my tiny brain could not crack that exam. Not even in it's wildest dream. Since they were coaching classes for 'IIT' and not school the standards of what they taught was high and that freaked me out.
Projectiles and Vectors gave me sleepless nights and I knew the harsh truth that I wasn't built for complex theories and logical application.
I decided, I would take Commerce. Get a graduation in economics or commerce and then look at further options like C.A or MBA. I did sufficient research regarding that field and saw that it had it's own risks and catches. I stand on a road which bifurcates into two, at one end the horrors of Newton and Rutherford haunt me and on the otherside impassive numbers and data await me. My plans for future are completely bizzare. I know what I want to become, but I don't know what I want to study.
When I decide that I shall take Commerce then the sunny side of Non-medical sciences shows up. When I make up my mind that I shall take Non-medical sciences the horrors confront me. People tell me to come to a conclusion, I'm still thinking and that day is not far when I have to decide. But it looks like I shall declare my decision only on the D-day.
Hey have you thought of talking to career counsellors or taking aptitude tests?that would help a lot. And remember don't go by the stereotypical notions about science, commerce and humanities. Just explore and talk to people around you. Take interest in different things. Follow your heart. I feel you are inclined towards language. Do not give in to any kind of pressure and do what you like :)
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